Hey again!

 

Hope everything is fine out there. I just watched a movie, it's called "The blind side" actually a very good movie. I also have been drinking a lot of coffe today which is so bad because I can't sleep now. The time is 04.30 in the morning at the moment and I am really bored so I decided to write a blog. Well, I've been thinking about something for a really long time. I will tell you about something I think is really annoying. But I'm gonna start with telling you a story before I tell u what's really annoying.

It was a guy in my school that I liked a lot. And now I mean like a friend, only like a friend. And he liked me too. We became really good friends. We did everything togheter, talked about everything, talked about our problems we had and so on. We were always going out after school to hang and talk and even sometimes on our freetime. I took him like a really good friend. And of course you can give compliments to friends and I gave him compliments sometimes. Like, if he had a nice shirt on him, I told him that it looked nice... something normal you know who doesn't do that for a friend? And one more thing that we always did, we joked. We liked to joke a lot about everything you can imagine. And sometimes he talked about girls, what kind of girls he like etc. He actually liked to flirt with girls but he never tried to flirt with me. He did it sometimes but I took it like a joke because I could seriously not imagine HIM flirting with me, that was JUST impossible.

Months went and we were still good friends. But, I started to notice that he didn't talked with me about girls anymore, he started to be much more serious when he talked to me. And when we were out with his friends, when they saw a girl they all said "look how beautiful she is" but he, he said "No she's not" so I could hear that. Then one day he sent me a message and told me that he just wanted to kiss me? And I told him that friends don't kiss each other. You wanna know what his answer was? "Aha so you mean that we are only friends?" I explained to him that I had only seen him as a friend in my eyes all the time. Of course he got really sad and angry. But I just had to tell him that so I could end it now before it was too late. I got really sad too and that's because I knew that this will destroy our friendship.

The thing is.. I don't really know if I did something wrong so he thought like he did. The only thing I did was that I behaved like a friend and nothing else and he took me like more than a friend. Well, it's nothing I can do about. We haven't talked in 6 months now. He told me that he didn't wanted to talk to me anymore because he wants to get me out from his mind and I respect that because I understand him.

Since that time, I thought that you really can't be a good friend with a guy. He always wants something from you. I'm maybe unlucky when it comes to that part but that's not the first time something like that happens and that's making me crazy. I think it's so so so annoying that you can't even have a guy as a friend without thinking that he will fall in love......

Alright I'll stop writing now. Feels like I can do that the whole night atm, haha what a geek I am!

 

                                                               


Goodnight people!

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