'Finish on a high note!'

And that's what I am going to do.

A journey through time

August 05, 2010
FnaticMSI.HoN defeats [DWi]!

Tal ('Bot', back then) and Johan visit me in Germany and we are informed by Danijel (StreeT) that Fnatic is interested in the trio. The same day the deal is sealed, we play an official match already from a netcafe - and win. The first step on an amazing path.

June 28, 2012

Almost two years after I join Fnatic my journey in the black and orange colours is at an end.
Two years might not seem long but in a transient and fast moving world like eSports it spans a lifetime.

Over the past few months I had less and less time to devote to progaming due to other things that needed my attention, effort and time.I stopped streaming, coaching to an extent and had very little fan contact in general. Yet everyone else in Fnatic managed to train more than twice the amount of games I did.

This obviously hurt the team performance atleast within Dota2. And even though most 'other things' have been resolved and completed by now, it would be somewhat delusional to force my team to wait for me until I have caught up. Combined with the fact that I still played a couple HoN games here and there it was time to go for a new chapter in my professional gaming career.

Random facts and nostalgia

Do you still remember Schweepes? Atleast Bot? Panda trilanes? What about Orbwalk?

Did you forget that Fnatic acquired Chu?

Gamer's Assembly in France was Johan's favourite LAN event.

Here's Dani trying to escape with our Gamer's Assembly medals. Come to think of it I don't quite remember where mine actually is...

Kalle 'Trixi' Saarinen was considered the most consistent and reliable player by many professional players throughout his HoN stint.

Before I joined Fnatic I played hard carry, sometimes sololane (atleast until N0tail joined us). Back when everyone was static farming like mad my main account had average 200/80 creep statistics.

I don't know whether to be ashamed of or amused by the fact that bar our last bootcamp prior Dreamhack Summer 2012 we never really got to practise at our bootcamps at all. Not more than a couple games. And even this time we played atleast an equal amount of Dota2 and like LIONs trashed us last year during practise, it's Gosu beat us four games in a row this time.

We lost eight games total on six LAN events:
Frenetic Array (2)
Online Kingdom (2)
Trademark eSports (2)
Blackfade (1)
Orange eSports (1)

For some more stats, most of our achievements are listed here.

Future goals

What comes next?
'Back to the roots!' it is.

I will return to Heroes of Newerth, the game which made it possible for me to become a part of eSports. Personally I am looking forward to a very exciting time ahead. Right now I have no players or gaming organization in mind that I want to be part of but I will work hard to create and establish a new team of five friends under a new banner.

With a lot more time at my hands and refreshed motivation I'm ready to build up a new top squad in HoN. Plans are made to start streaming regularly and fully pick up the coaching again.

On top of that I might realize some other projects regarding the stream which I never found the time for! But let's focus on a new beginning and a new team first of all.

Thanksgiving time

Many nice memories and good friends I've made during my time in Fnatic.
I want to thank Danijel 'StreeT' Remus for making this possible, first of all.
Anne, Neil, Harry, Sam, Cam, Lexx, Jim, John, Elroy, Mat and Phil in no particular order.
My (ex-)mates for many good moments and the quotes.txt.

To all the diehard NoVa fans out there: Fnatic has been a second family for me. Wherever my path will lead, they deserve respect and support.

For the last time

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  • aim4it aim4it
    Posted Jun 28, 2012 at 22:17

    this makes me very very sad panda,
    u were by far my favourite player and the reason i love supporting
    u were an example for unselfishness play and always kind to fans and other teams
    the good thing i take from this is that i can see you in hon more often and that u will stream again.
    best of luck with everything and ill be watching ur stream like an addict

  • smock smock
    Posted Jun 28, 2012 at 22:34

    Extremely sad to see you go! Can't really say I follow HoN much anymore but you were always one of the ones who grounded the scene and Fnatic both. You're classy and professional in everything you do.

    Best of luck for whatever comes next! I'll always be a fan.

  • bebicko bebicko
    Posted Jun 28, 2012 at 22:53

    Sad time for Fnatic :( Good luck in your future! You were an idol to many out there and the best player!!!

  • Nym4a Nym4a
    Posted Jun 28, 2012 at 23:56

    Sad to see you leave Fnatic, but I will be rooting for your new clan if and when you get it running. You were a valuable asset to Fnatic and I don't think they'll do as well without ya. Good luck!

  • itfytd itfytd
    Posted Jun 29, 2012 at 00:03

    See you soon :)

  • rAk1N rAk1N
    Posted Jun 29, 2012 at 06:31

    Sad sad day :(

  • Noname Noname
    Posted Jun 29, 2012 at 08:21

    I have never met you in person but the fact that you were in fnatic for 2 years is significant. I still remember having the skype call with you, notail and fly along with Dani and I got a great vibe from the 3 of you. I was only happy to let go of my HoN team to Dani and you guys. Knowing it would become a top team for sure.

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